Just Because it's Monday

So many things happened this weekend.

First - I had the worst pain due to the snow. It was really cute watching Prince jump at the window and almost break up my blinds trying to get at the snow. My mom asked me if I took him out to play in it but a) my knee was hurting too bad b)he'd be the kitten that ran right into the street or away from me, so I'll just let him admire it from the WARMTH of the apartment.

Second - one of Jabbar's close family friends passed away and we went to his funeral. I saw my boyfriend cry for the first time (yes in almost 8 years - I've heard it, heard about it but never saw it). I don't even think he was crying because of the deceased (he hasn't dealt with death as much as I have), but more so about the message. He said after listening to everyone sing and speak, he realized that he was being selfish by wanting the person to stay when he's in a much better place now. Also he said something about making sure as the Minister who gave the Eulogy said it "he cleaned his spots", ensuring that his Mansion is going to be built in Heaven. I think this means slowly but surely that brainwashing Catholic religion he grew up on is being fused out, so he can finally open his mind to Christianity. Understanding what it means to be "saved" (knowing that that does not include speaking in tongues or running around a church because you caught the spirit), and accepting Jesus into your life. It's a beautiful thing, and I think his spiritually will grow as well (which trust me, is going to be a lot harder now but so much more rewarding).

Speaking of spirituality and Christianity, THIRD - I think I've found a new church home. For a while now, I've come to realize that the United Methodist faith is not for me. It's very slow and it's an experience that makes you feel like you have to go to church, not that you want to. I learned that the Pentecostal faith is a bit too superfluous for me, and the teachings you learn reflect those that have "found religion" and not learned to EMBRACE CHRISTIANITY. My happy medium was the Baptist faith. Well I was told about Emmanuel Baptist out in Brooklyn, but somehow was allowing others opinion of the church dictate my attendance. Well I went yesterday, and I LOVED IT. I'll be going again next week, and hopefully the week after (if I'm not in MD visiting Bianca and Nina), and then I'm going to join.

Lastly - strange situation. I'm not going to get into the details because I'm going to keep the ambiguity of some of my life events, but you ever feel like God is trying to tell you something, but then you don't. It's like living one of those strange times when you're looking for a sign any sign, but because you're looking so hard you think everything is a sign. Well that's what happened yesterday. Let's just say I question the concept of soul mates, and marriage, and the life we want to live vs. the life we will live. Just a thought to ponder - if someone is so anti marriage (when they are at a decent marrying age), why do they strive so hard to hold onto associations that could lead to marriage.

Oh yeah, I finally told Mr. Man about my knee. I know he wasn't expecting to hear that from me, and he felt like an A** when I explained to him my problem with the cold weather. I love being that book that you can't judge based on the cover (in other words, get to know me before you give your assumptions about me).