Cancers Forgive but Forgetting.....

Don't know if you knew this - Mr. Man (How You Doin) is a Cancer. Yup our birthdays are so close you would think we were in sync. Too bad we're so opposite.

You ever heard forgive but never forget? Well that's him in a nutshell (sidenote Ms. Know it All left our office in July to be a teacher at a charter school). I swear at times I'll talk to him and things will go in the ear and because he's trying to think about what his next move/statement will be, it just goes out the next. I literally told him today that I'm glad he put something in writing, and that I don't want to take away my own accountability and he wants to give me a counter for why he's right. Crazy I know - I'm agreeing with him and saying I know I'm wrong and I get further explanation as to why I'm wrong. I even say I think there is a barrier of communication with us because its like we're going tit for tat. He doesn't really respond but tells me that what I'm saying is something I should want to take blame for.

Not only that but it seems like no matter what I do or say to improve, he harbors on how things were last year when all of my co workers were miserable, he knew about it, but did nothing to improve it. He had the nerve to tell me I don't "go above and beyond to help the team". Mind you this is coming two days after I spent 1/2 of my personal day in the office because I know we are short staffed, and a week after I did the work of 3 people because we were...short staffed. I wouldn't be so hurt about all of this if he didn't tell my co worker thank you for helping out the team, and when she acknowledged that it was me and not her, I got nothing but more things about what I'm doing wrong.

I'm convinced I've hit my head against the ceiling here. After a long conversation with my BFF I've learned that it's not really the company as it is the boss (my BF pointed out that there's something to be said about working under "bitches"). The one aspect of my job description that was defined to me as a max of 10% effort has become 90% of my concentrated energy in the office. With that conclusion I know that God has said to me - "Simone if you don't get your ass out of there I'll take you out" and I'm doing just that.

Side note - I still believe in the powers of good and evil (Ms. Know it All), and as it appears evil is winning, but God - I mean GOOD always prevails.

So for the open letter portion of this post:
Dear Ms. Know it All,

Right now everyone who encounters you knows how aweful you are except for the one person that matters. But God is good and your time will come. I just pray the Lord has mercy on your soul.

Signed
A Child of God who is NOT EASILY BROKEN!!!

Dear Mr. Man,

The wool is pulled so far over your eyes. When it finally comes off I hope it all will eventually come together for you. I'm not going to look for an apology because I don't need or want it. I just hope that you recognize things.

Signed,
Aint Gon Let NO ONE Turn me Round